A Married Man

A Married Man

Contiguous is his smile, bright his brain

He smells sexy, and sounds sophisticated, too elitist to turn decent women on,

Smart and handsome, just like a movie star version 

He is the man I have met in my dreams and imagination since the day love is known

But he is married, Now that I have met him in person, 

I am not ashamed to admit, I am helplessly in love with him. 

I love his eyes, his ears, his style, 

The height of his neck and the stretch of his legs, 

The accuracy of his brain, his balanced sense of morality, 

The punch of his voice and calmness of his composure,

God, do I have to say it more …. Nampenda

But I am that girl, who believes not in being a mistress, 

Not because I am selfish and I need him to be my own – that is not pointless, 

But I can’t stand a thought of a tearing wife as he waits for him spending time with his mistress

Or the despair of his children – dad can no longer play games, busy being loved in secrecy 

A friend told me, all men cheat, 

If not with you, it will be with someone else, so if I love him, better be me!  That make sense, right? 

But would I be able to call him first thing in the morning when all I wanted to hear is his smooth voice to turn my sanity and make my day bright? 

Or it will be a life of steering on my phone hoping he will sneak a text between his meetings or wife’s kitchen surveillance rights? 

The say, married men don’t love, they use, but I disagree, 

All I have seen in him is the loving of the highest degree. 

He doesn’t love me because there is trouble in paradise but simply because he loves … me-ee

Truth is I feel the same way. But our crime, meeting in odd times, the world condemns me-ee         

If you should know

Gallons of tears I have shed before God begging to make us connect  

Here he is, just like I prescribed with one minor mistake 99% correct

Can I real go back to God complaining that, he got one thing to correct?

How, will that not make me an ungrateful brat? 

I have met many men to surely know he is the one 

But I have not lived to enjoy the pain of anyone 

Should I love him as mine or let go and fight my feelings on my own. 

Brothers and sisters tell me am not insane! 

@Mwanahamisi ‘Mishy’ Singano